The Ecstasy [VD15]He figured me outFairly quickly,And he hasn't gottenA thing wrong.From the kiss underThe street lampTo the night underHis sheets.Nothing has been"Perfect",He makes me crazy -I'm insane for loving him,But every deranged momentIs beyond worth it. <3Speaking of crazy...Wasn't I dedicatingThis to someone?
The Admiration [VD15]I met someone today.His eyes gleamed brighterThan yours ever did - Forget you!He held me in a goodbye,A simple & friendly hugThat lasted justOne extraSecond.He laughed at myHumorous attempts,And I laughed at hisWell-thought jokes.He didn't have to chase me,Persuade me to love him with his love;He just had to smile and show meWhat's true in people and what makesPeople love people.Hehe, look at me -Throwing the "l" wordAround again...[For you information,My dearest ex,He would laugh atThat attempt.]
The Desire [VD15]I can't help but toReminisce your touch;The glee I first feltWhen your fingersIntertwined with mine& You twirled meInto a tight hug,The need I feltAfter our first nightOf dear intimacy;I miss the bare touch...I can't stop it,RememberingYour care...Your shirts were betterThan the pillowsI cried into,And you allowed meTo drench them in sorrow.I can't forgetMy desire,Not for you -But for love.
Opening My Flesh for No Valid Reason...Darling,Put the blade downAnd keep your nailsAway from your skin -You're a precious being,So please:Don't abuse yourselfFor being human.
The Grief [VD15]How am I expectedTo liveWithout you?You've turned me intoA clichéWho is used to livingWith you enactingPart of my life.I don't know how to actWhen I wake upTo an emptyBed.I can't manage to speakIn the way you swiftlyReplied to yourour friends.I lost a piece of myselfWhen you left,And I have no clueHow to rebuildBecause you were alwaysThe one to pick up the bricksAnd re-create my baseFor us to stand on.
The Disgust [VD15]I can't believe I lovedA dirty rat like you,It made you smile to see me cry;You would compliment my eyesThen take advantage of the moment.Around your friends, I was nothing.I was just that slut you couldLay your hands all over.I can't believe I believed myselfWhen I "loved" you.& I hope I never fall for anyoneWho resembles any characteristicThat reminds me of you.
The Rage [VD15]It looked ay me again.It! who ripped me apart,Artery by every arteryPumping within my heart.I must say, the blood runsSteaming hot in a worldWhere your body is leftCrumpled at my feet,The same way you left meAd I begged for forgiveness& Hoped to have you back -I hope life is Hell & that -Nevermind, that would meanLiving at home with Satan.The same being who beganTroubles for the first couple,But even Adam & EveLoved better than we.
The Fear [VD15]Imagine that you liveIn a home made of glass;But one day, it shatters.Safety and security -It all implodes on you,Splintering in your body& Searing permanent cuts.The house now sits, barren.Minimal amounts of wood,What once held it all standing:It's now slowly deteriorating,Fading in the lightest of breezes...This destroyed, crumbling home,An object that began fragile,Now open & vulnerable -This is what defines me.That broken home,Is my broken heart.