It's all harmless fun,
He knows I'm kidding
He's constantly giving reasons
That make me want to die
Sure, he's a hideous thing,
But that's not my fault
He tells me how ugly I am,
That I'm some monstrous being
He's the biggest nerd ever
He deserves to know his level
He steals my glasses, hits my books
Tells me to stop the "genius act"
I'm always sure to tell others
How we're just playing around
He tells the teachers, "we're friends",
About how this is just "our little game"
Soon the day came
When the bullied
Couldn't take it
Another minute more
It's either me hanging from a ceiling,
Or him bleeding all over his death bed
He came over today, to my house
Told me he wanted to "play our game"
I never deserved this, never him,
But I know what he deserves, now
He took out a knife from his pocket
And I explained I meant him no harm
He didn't want to hurt me in that moment
It made him so vulnerable to myself
I apologized having realized
The true monster I had created
He only said sorry because
I chose his death over mine
Apologies were given,
Although never traded
Blades were slashed,
Blood was tossed
All I ever did to him was
Tell him words of my opinion
All he always did to me
Was put me down with insults
In return for that,
He gashed up my skin
In return for all his torture,
I sliced his wrist, stomach, and face
He walked away from my apology
Leaving me bleeding in pain
I walked away from false words
Leaving him bleeding, but alive
He didn't kill me...
I don't understand why...
I didn't end his life there,
He still had a life to suffer
I walked to the bathroom
He turned on the faucet
I washed dirty blood off my blade
He walked back in the room
I laid the blade against his cut palm
He gave me a look that read "murder"
I walked to the room's corner
He picked up an extension cord
I tied it around the ceiling fan
He looped it around his neck
I lifted my feet above the ground
He closed his eyes
I never smiled, never showed my glee
His chest ceased rising
I found myself falling in flames
He hung from my very own ceiling...
I saw a light that took me away
He ended his life because of me...
I climbed a set of stairs to a golden gate
I never meant for this...
I stepped in - now, I live in the clouds
I never expected this
They were only words...