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The World Is A Trigger: Good Days

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Smile in the mirror, and say it aloud to yourself. "Today is going to be a good day!" But the smile turns as rivers of tears push its tips down. One glance to the left, simply seeing a normal door is enough. I'm in a room - a bedroom, my own. It's all real and it means something. I'm living a good life, and I'm taking it for granted! Every day should be a good day! I'm not suffering anymore, so what's so special about today? What does it even matter now, the depression is coming on me like a wave pool. I'm already beginning to drown in the anxiety-- and then time clicks. Here I am, living a normal life, trying to figure out how normal people feel... I can't even decipher between a good, normal, or bad day. It always starts and ends the same with thoughts like these...
This is probably my most ventful so far... So I apologize for the quality.

But, does anyone else ever feel like this? You get so happy about where you are in life today that you start feeling so thankful it leaves you depressed? That has been my life for the past few weeks.

(On the bright side, I think I'm finally done with crying myself to sleep because I have a bed to even do that in... It still makes me sad to think about, but it dosen't send me into a fit anymore. So, there's something good on this topic.)
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AnnaBellLee17's avatar
I can't really relate.. sorry. 

but i can relate to to the frustration with people.. it is hard to figure out the normal and i am still figuring it out.  not everything though (thank god).

I imagine it would be more so when you aren't sure of how you feel about stuff. All i can say is to just keep trying on finding the answer.